Perhaps it is because he feels so vulnerable in this moment, perhaps it is because her stepping away from him reminds him of his duties towards her, but the look Ninon gives him as she promises him he will not disappoint has him balking a little.
"Ninon..."
It is not right. He ought not even call her by her given name, were he properly following protocol — although that really doesn't seem to sit well with the Spirearch's family, as even the Spirearch himself insists on being called Addison — and the scandal that would ensue if anyone found out that he was sleeping with his charge would be astronomical.
But he can't deny that he wants her, desperately. He's been denying himself what he wants for so much of his life, that the prospect of potentially being able to have it, to have her, is somewhat overwhelming.
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Date: 2018-12-10 08:24 pm (UTC)"Ninon..."
It is not right. He ought not even call her by her given name, were he properly following protocol — although that really doesn't seem to sit well with the Spirearch's family, as even the Spirearch himself insists on being called Addison — and the scandal that would ensue if anyone found out that he was sleeping with his charge would be astronomical.
But he can't deny that he wants her, desperately. He's been denying himself what he wants for so much of his life, that the prospect of potentially being able to have it, to have her, is somewhat overwhelming.