He hadn't meant to start grinding down against her, it had been instinct. And, like most instincts, it was rather difficult to stop once he started, and so despite the fact that he knows he should pull back and make some sort of quip as to why women don't do that all the time, forget getting anything useful done with their lives, Benedict finds himself instead continuing to suck in unsteady breaths through his open mouth, feeling drunk on the smell of her and the heat building in him, his hips jerking a handful more times before the urge that had been coiling at the base of his spine erupts through him, leaving him shuddering above her instead of the other way around.
After, once he realizes just what an ass he's made of himself, he moans, mortified.
"Oh god," he groans, rolling off her and landing on the bed beside her so he can cover his face with his hands as the situation demands, hiding the fiery red blush that has stained his cheeks and spilled down to his chest. This is a nightmare.
As she comes back to herself more and more, she starts to realize that Benedict is moving on top of her. And before she can stop him, before she can urge him to slow down or else he might... Well, he does. It's clear that he's come by the way his body moves, the way his breathing sounds. A shocked sort of laugh bubbles up inside of her and she easily stamps it down thanks to well-trained years of having to control one's behavior.
He rolls off of her before she can stop him and she realizes that her hand had been trapped between them all the while, her wrist feeling tweaked but that soreness would go away quickly. Well, this awkward but not wholly unexpected. He's never been with a woman and she wonders if he's ever even been close to one before...
It's his groaned word that pulls her out of her amusement, realizing that this is probably absolutely embarrassing for him. Rolling onto her side, she reaches out to pull his hands from his face. "And that is a man's pleasure, it seems," she says lightly, trying to lean in to kiss his jaw. "It's alright, darling. Truly."
He resists when she tries to pull his hand down from his face, not wanting to face the undoubtedly amused expression she wears. Objectively, he can understand why it's funny. It doesn't seem funny to him, though, it's just...horrifying.
"No, shut up," he protests, grinding the heels of his palms harder into his eyes like maybe he can just press himself through the mattress and disappear. "Just let me die in peace. This is mortifying."
At least he confessed his virginity to her before this all started. He can't imagine how much worse he would feel right now if he had blundered along, pretending to know what he was doing, only to be betrayed by his body in such a terrible manner before things even got going. If that had been the case, he might well have just fled from the room completely.
She wouldn't dare laugh at him even if she finds this terribly amusing and quite, well, flattering in its own way. When he resists her, she moves to sit up, pulling at his wrists with both hands so he will look at her, a gentle smile on her face.
"Oh no, you don't. I am not nearly finished with you yet." She tugs at his wrists again. "I've heard this happens to many men. And I take it as the highest form of flattery." Granted, she imagines he might have come like that even if she was the most unseemly looking woman in the world, he wasn't even looking at her and she was warm and naked and coming herself.
"And you forget, it isn't as though we can't try again in a few minutes. Unless you mean to be a terrible tease and leave me here unfulfilled."
Finally, mostly because he can't think of any other way out of this situation, he lets Ninon pull his hands away from his face, though it takes him a moment before he can muster up enough courage to actually look at her.
"I'm sorry," he says eventually, shrugging his shoulders up high and still bright red in the face. "I..." he trails off, not having anything else to say to that, and in the end just winds up pressing his lips tightly together, rolling them between his teeth and fighting the urge to shift uncomfortably.
Well this evening took a turn she had not hoped for nor anticipated. He was taking this hard, as to be expected. Most, if not all men would feel the same sense of embarrassment but she thinks that Benedict takes failure harder than most. When he finally looks at her and apologies, she tuts at him and leans over to kiss him, despite the positioning of his lips.
"You have not a thing to apologize for." She smooths a hand lazily over his chest, finally able to touch it for herself after weeks of only feeling his chest through his various clothing. "You might be more comfortable if you undress, I feel as though we are quite unequal at the moment."
"This is appalling," he complains, though he sounds a little bit less like he's about to throw himself off the edge of the Spire.
It helps that she's kissing him, and rubbing her hand over the planes of his chest. It's a little more reassuring than he'd like to admit; Benedict, probably due to his warriorborn genes, very much likes being petted. It's incredibly soothing, to have such a repetitive touch applied to him, and whether it's her running her fingers through his hair, or stroking her hand over his chest, it does calm him down rather quickly.
Sighing, he shifts his legs and toes out of his boots, kicking them off the end of her bed, before reaching for the waistband of his trousers.
He grimaces as he unfastens them and starts to push them down his hips; apparently the embarrassment of a premature orgasm has washed aside whatever other embarrassment he might have felt at displaying his naked body in front of an interested party, as he kicks the trousers off too once they get down far enough, flopping dramatically back onto her mattress with another put-upon sigh.
For a moment, he reminds her a little of her brother when they were younger. Only in that petulant, pouting sort of way. Although that's where the comparison stops, considering he's getting naked, huffing about it the whole time. She tried to reassure him that it's nothing to fret about and yet, he's taking it quite to heart.
Reminding herself that he is young and his pride is currently wounded, she lets him do what he must to get undressed before he falls back against the bed. She remains sitting up, although she moves to prop herself up against the headboard, eyebrows lifted.
In her, perhaps more hedonistic, mind, pleasure is pleasure, not matter however embarrassing it was. If anyone should be displeased, it should be her and for now, the only thing that is putting her off is his reaction to what just happened. "Was it so horrible?"
Ninon moves to sit beside him, leaning back against the ornate headboard of her bed, seemingly unimpressed with his dramatics. While he can sympathize with her position, he still feels like he is fully validated in all his moaning and carrying on, but now that the initial surge of utter mortification has abated somewhat, he forces himself to think more rationally about this whole thing and pushes aside the urge to curl up and hide and instead rolls onto his side so that he can put his hand on her thigh and look up at her.
"Yes, but..." But not for the reason she apparently thinks. He reaches for her hand and lifts it to his lips to kiss her fingers, somehow shocked that he can smell her on them even though he had watched her touch herself with them not five minutes ago. Even though he has just orgasmed, the smell of her so close has a little frisson of want curling through him. Perhaps she was right about it only taking a few minutes before they can try again.
"You were magnificent. It is I who was the disappointment."
He is free to feel what he needs to feel but she does not think so badly of what has happened. It is not as though it puts an end to their night. He is young and undoubtedly virile, she suspects that his warriorborn side will it make it possible for his body to bounce back rather quickly.
It is something to be laughed about later, to be sure. But not the end of the world.
He seems to come to his senses, somewhat, turning to look at her. His touch is hot against already warmed, flushed skin and she shivers slightly because of it as he explains what he means. She rolls her eyes good-naturedly at such a statement, her hand reaching out to comb through his hair. "You are not a disappointment, Benedict. There are so many ways to be together, to feel good. We both found our pleasure together, in each other's company. I do not see that as a failure. I am sorry that you do."
Her fingers in his hair produce the expected result: Benedict's eyelids drift down for a moment, a small pleased smile curling his lips, and he leans into the touch. Just like a Cat, it seems.
Shifting a little closer, he bends his head and kisses the edge of her rib cage, smiling against her skin and resisting the urge to pull her hand closer again so he can lick her fingers. She would probably find that strange, and he's been strange enough for one night.
"It seems there is much you have to teach me," he teases.
Perhaps she would not find it as strange as he might think. But for now, she cannot read his mind and she simply grins at him when he says she can teach him so much. "Oh, I will teach you many things." She gives his head a gentle tug by the hair, trying to coax him up higher. "Come here."
"I look forward to it," he murmurs, shifting to get an arm beneath himself so he can do as she urges and crawl a little closer, presumably so she can kiss him. Benedict is not going to complain, he quite enjoys kissing.
Except that the moment their mouths are even, she makes a move to flip their positions, wanting him to be sitting up against the headboard with her perched in his lap. If he complies, she'll settle there, pressing their bodies warmly together. "There, much better."
Biddable as always, Benedict lets himself be shoved back so that he is the one leaning against her head board instead of she, allowing her plenty of room to swing a leg over his lap so that she can perch on his thighs, pinning him down to the bed with her weight.
It would be a lie to say the move exactly surprised him, as he could feel her muscles bunching beneath her skin as she prepared to shift their positions, but he probably wouldn't have thought of it himself, so when he settles and she is sitting in his lap, he lets out a little huff of breath that could be a laugh if one was feeling charitable.
Settling his hands on her hips, and then spreading his fingers wide and sliding his hands up and around her back, touching as much of her at once as he can, he grins at her, for a moment forgetting about his teeth.
"I confess, this was not what I pictured when I considered how tonight would end," he says.
Settling in his lap like she belongs there, she smirks at him when he lets his hands roam over her skin. This is what she wants, she wants him to be comfortable and happy, to touch her without reservation.
And when he grins at her, she feels her heart skip a beat, a flutter in her stomach and it takes all her willpower not to lean forward and steal a kiss. "What is it that you pictured?" As in, how should have his night ended?
In all honesty, she mostly knew the answer but she finds that she likes to hear him speak about anything and everything. And this gives her a chance to run her fingers along his chest, to feel him.
Though he has never allowed himself to indulge in it, Benedict is secretly something of a hedonist. This moment, with all of Ninon's pale, lovely skin pressed against his, fulfills something inside himself he has almost never looked at. If he was given his druthers, he might wish to remain here for hours. Sadly, he knows he will have to leave well before the night is through, but for now, he can indulge.
"Well, I had mostly been expecting to bid you a good night and return to my bed alone."
He had certainly not imagined he would be sitting in her bed, with her hands brushing across his chest, her knees bracketing his hips.
"How lonely and boring," she murmurs idly, a little distracted by the way he's touching her and by the feel of his skin beneath her fingers. And after a moment, she cannot help but lean down and draw her lips along his neck and over his shoulder. "Do you even realize how glorious you are?"
"Monks rarely look this good naked," she says with amusement against his skin, sucking gently at his neck, stopping short of leaving a mark. For now. Her hand, however, wanders down his torso, moving slowly, teasingly low along his abdomen.
He rumbles a quiet laugh, the muscles of his abdomen tightening beneath her touch as he tips his head back against the elaborately-carved wooden headboard behind him, so used to extravagant displays of wealth that he doesn't even marvel at the sheer cost her bed must have run, too busy marveling at the feel of all her warm skin beneath his fingers.
"Seen many a naked monk, have you?" he teases, feeling oddly disappointed when she lifts her mouth from his skin and doesn't continue to suck until the blood rises to the surface.
"You're my first." She is very distracted right now, her conversation will be limited. Because right now, she's decided to let her hand slide down even lower, just short of touching him intimately. Her mouth finds the space beneath his ear. "May I touch you?"
For some reason, Benedict has been manfully trying not to think about the fact that all of Ninon's lovely warm skin has been oh-so close to his cock. It seems disrespectful, somehow, to let himself be aware of the fact that her weight is nearly perched directly over his groin, and should she wish to move a little closer, he might wind up poking her with it.
That seems to be a moot point, though, as her wandering hand quickly starts to wander quite close to the very part of his body he is trying so hard not to think about.
"Yes," he breathes, instead of the what a stupid question he'd been trying to articulate, unable to joke any longer when the promise of physical contact is so close at hand. Literally.
If she knew his thoughts, she'd wonder why he was so determined to keep his mind off his cock when it's absolutely on hers. They are both so delightfully naked, what better time to think of each other's bodies and the way they are pressed together? It's not as though it would be unacceptable for him to be aroused, given what she means to do with him as soon as he's able.
With his permission, she lets her hand wander past the hard plane of his abdomen and over a tussle of undoubtedly neatly kept hair to slide her fingers over his cock, just to get a feel for it. After all, she'd barely been able to catch a glance at it, let alone touch it. "My, my," she murmurs, looking up at him with a little fire in her eyes. "I certainly do not find you lacking."
Benedict is far more used to thinking of his body as a tool, a weapon of sorts, than an instrument of pleasure. He does not often touch himself, because he does not have the imagination for masturbation or because he often lives in close proximity to others, he isn't sure. He certainly has not compared himself to others, beset with curiosity and the need to posture with his peers, aware of his place in the social hierarchy and knowing that there was very little he could do to jostle his way higher to the top.
Still, the novelty of having a hand not his own touch his cock, combined with Ninon's warmly amused voice, is enough to have him stiffening in her grasp, hopefully proving her point.
"I...don't know what to say to that," he confesses on a laugh, fighting the urge to squirm beneath her.
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Date: 2018-12-13 02:09 am (UTC)After, once he realizes just what an ass he's made of himself, he moans, mortified.
"Oh god," he groans, rolling off her and landing on the bed beside her so he can cover his face with his hands as the situation demands, hiding the fiery red blush that has stained his cheeks and spilled down to his chest. This is a nightmare.
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Date: 2018-12-13 02:17 am (UTC)He rolls off of her before she can stop him and she realizes that her hand had been trapped between them all the while, her wrist feeling tweaked but that soreness would go away quickly. Well, this awkward but not wholly unexpected. He's never been with a woman and she wonders if he's ever even been close to one before...
It's his groaned word that pulls her out of her amusement, realizing that this is probably absolutely embarrassing for him. Rolling onto her side, she reaches out to pull his hands from his face. "And that is a man's pleasure, it seems," she says lightly, trying to lean in to kiss his jaw. "It's alright, darling. Truly."
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Date: 2018-12-13 02:22 am (UTC)"No, shut up," he protests, grinding the heels of his palms harder into his eyes like maybe he can just press himself through the mattress and disappear. "Just let me die in peace. This is mortifying."
At least he confessed his virginity to her before this all started. He can't imagine how much worse he would feel right now if he had blundered along, pretending to know what he was doing, only to be betrayed by his body in such a terrible manner before things even got going. If that had been the case, he might well have just fled from the room completely.
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Date: 2018-12-13 02:29 am (UTC)"Oh no, you don't. I am not nearly finished with you yet." She tugs at his wrists again. "I've heard this happens to many men. And I take it as the highest form of flattery." Granted, she imagines he might have come like that even if she was the most unseemly looking woman in the world, he wasn't even looking at her and she was warm and naked and coming herself.
"And you forget, it isn't as though we can't try again in a few minutes. Unless you mean to be a terrible tease and leave me here unfulfilled."
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Date: 2018-12-13 02:34 am (UTC)"I'm sorry," he says eventually, shrugging his shoulders up high and still bright red in the face. "I..." he trails off, not having anything else to say to that, and in the end just winds up pressing his lips tightly together, rolling them between his teeth and fighting the urge to shift uncomfortably.
He's very sticky.
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Date: 2018-12-13 02:39 am (UTC)"You have not a thing to apologize for." She smooths a hand lazily over his chest, finally able to touch it for herself after weeks of only feeling his chest through his various clothing. "You might be more comfortable if you undress, I feel as though we are quite unequal at the moment."
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Date: 2018-12-13 02:45 am (UTC)It helps that she's kissing him, and rubbing her hand over the planes of his chest. It's a little more reassuring than he'd like to admit; Benedict, probably due to his warriorborn genes, very much likes being petted. It's incredibly soothing, to have such a repetitive touch applied to him, and whether it's her running her fingers through his hair, or stroking her hand over his chest, it does calm him down rather quickly.
Sighing, he shifts his legs and toes out of his boots, kicking them off the end of her bed, before reaching for the waistband of his trousers.
He grimaces as he unfastens them and starts to push them down his hips; apparently the embarrassment of a premature orgasm has washed aside whatever other embarrassment he might have felt at displaying his naked body in front of an interested party, as he kicks the trousers off too once they get down far enough, flopping dramatically back onto her mattress with another put-upon sigh.
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Date: 2018-12-13 02:56 am (UTC)Reminding herself that he is young and his pride is currently wounded, she lets him do what he must to get undressed before he falls back against the bed. She remains sitting up, although she moves to prop herself up against the headboard, eyebrows lifted.
In her, perhaps more hedonistic, mind, pleasure is pleasure, not matter however embarrassing it was. If anyone should be displeased, it should be her and for now, the only thing that is putting her off is his reaction to what just happened. "Was it so horrible?"
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Date: 2018-12-13 03:04 am (UTC)"Yes, but..." But not for the reason she apparently thinks. He reaches for her hand and lifts it to his lips to kiss her fingers, somehow shocked that he can smell her on them even though he had watched her touch herself with them not five minutes ago. Even though he has just orgasmed, the smell of her so close has a little frisson of want curling through him. Perhaps she was right about it only taking a few minutes before they can try again.
"You were magnificent. It is I who was the disappointment."
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Date: 2018-12-13 03:11 am (UTC)It is something to be laughed about later, to be sure. But not the end of the world.
He seems to come to his senses, somewhat, turning to look at her. His touch is hot against already warmed, flushed skin and she shivers slightly because of it as he explains what he means. She rolls her eyes good-naturedly at such a statement, her hand reaching out to comb through his hair. "You are not a disappointment, Benedict. There are so many ways to be together, to feel good. We both found our pleasure together, in each other's company. I do not see that as a failure. I am sorry that you do."
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Date: 2018-12-13 03:17 am (UTC)Shifting a little closer, he bends his head and kisses the edge of her rib cage, smiling against her skin and resisting the urge to pull her hand closer again so he can lick her fingers. She would probably find that strange, and he's been strange enough for one night.
"It seems there is much you have to teach me," he teases.
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Date: 2018-12-13 09:55 am (UTC)It would be a lie to say the move exactly surprised him, as he could feel her muscles bunching beneath her skin as she prepared to shift their positions, but he probably wouldn't have thought of it himself, so when he settles and she is sitting in his lap, he lets out a little huff of breath that could be a laugh if one was feeling charitable.
Settling his hands on her hips, and then spreading his fingers wide and sliding his hands up and around her back, touching as much of her at once as he can, he grins at her, for a moment forgetting about his teeth.
"I confess, this was not what I pictured when I considered how tonight would end," he says.
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Date: 2018-12-13 03:25 pm (UTC)And when he grins at her, she feels her heart skip a beat, a flutter in her stomach and it takes all her willpower not to lean forward and steal a kiss. "What is it that you pictured?" As in, how should have his night ended?
In all honesty, she mostly knew the answer but she finds that she likes to hear him speak about anything and everything. And this gives her a chance to run her fingers along his chest, to feel him.
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Date: 2018-12-13 08:51 pm (UTC)"Well, I had mostly been expecting to bid you a good night and return to my bed alone."
He had certainly not imagined he would be sitting in her bed, with her hands brushing across his chest, her knees bracketing his hips.
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Date: 2018-12-13 09:28 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-12-13 09:34 pm (UTC)"I am a rather boring man, Ninon," he protests, his hands flexing on her back. "I was a monk, remember?"
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Date: 2018-12-13 09:47 pm (UTC)"Seen many a naked monk, have you?" he teases, feeling oddly disappointed when she lifts her mouth from his skin and doesn't continue to suck until the blood rises to the surface.
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Date: 2018-12-14 03:17 am (UTC)That seems to be a moot point, though, as her wandering hand quickly starts to wander quite close to the very part of his body he is trying so hard not to think about.
"Yes," he breathes, instead of the what a stupid question he'd been trying to articulate, unable to joke any longer when the promise of physical contact is so close at hand. Literally.
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Date: 2018-12-14 03:24 am (UTC)With his permission, she lets her hand wander past the hard plane of his abdomen and over a tussle of undoubtedly neatly kept hair to slide her fingers over his cock, just to get a feel for it. After all, she'd barely been able to catch a glance at it, let alone touch it. "My, my," she murmurs, looking up at him with a little fire in her eyes. "I certainly do not find you lacking."
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Date: 2018-12-14 03:34 am (UTC)Still, the novelty of having a hand not his own touch his cock, combined with Ninon's warmly amused voice, is enough to have him stiffening in her grasp, hopefully proving her point.
"I...don't know what to say to that," he confesses on a laugh, fighting the urge to squirm beneath her.
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